Imagine
asking a child in the third grade of elementary school to test whether an
aeronautical engineer is a competent professional or not. It sounds ridiculous,
doesn't it? Naturally, the child – with his knowledge tools of addition,
subtraction and multiplication – can't possibly evaluate the engineer's
knowledge of physics and aerodynamics. Understandably, the child is simply not
on the engineer's level, as we all understand.
Oddly,
people make judgments about tzaddikim when in effect there is just as big a gap
between the average person and the true tzaddik as there is between the
third-grader and the aeronautical engineer. In reality, no one has any genuine
understanding of the true tzaddik, because the tzaddik defies understanding. To
this day, no one fully understands who the Baal Shem Tov was. Rebbe Natan said
more than once that he had no idea who Rebbe Nachman really was, despite the
fact that Rebbe Natan devoted his whole adult life to spreading Rebbe Nachman's
teachings.
Yet,
in order to cling to the true tzaddik, we must have some way to discern who is
a true tzaddik. If we can't comprehend the tzaddik and we lack the capacity of
evaluating him, then how do we know who he is?
The
answer is surprisingly simple. We recognize who a true tzaddik is by looking at
his pupils. If the pupils are dedicated servants of Hashem, devoted to Torah
while guarding their personal holiness, then it becomes apparent that their
teacher is a true tzaddik.
We
can understand the above principle by looking at a rubber stamp. If we look at
the rubber stamp itself, it's difficult to discern what's written on the stamp
because the letters are inverted. But once we dip the rubber stamp on an ink
pad and the stamp a piece of paper, the message becomes clear and apparent. In
like manner, although we can't grasp the tzaddik in our minds by looking at him
directly, we can certainly see the impression he leaves on his pupils.
Looking
at the tzaddik's pupils can be perplexing in itself. Generally speaking, we see
that there are two main types of pupils. One type is making constant spiritual
growth, yet the other type hardly changes, staying more or less the same over
the years. What's the difference between the two?
Let's
preface our answer by saying that neither of the two types of pupils is capable
of implementing the demands that the tzaddik makes on them. For example, the
tzaddik tells them that in order to cling to Hashem, they must rid themselves
of their lust for women. The stagnant pupil shrugs his shoulders and says to
himself, "What, does my teacher think I'm an angel? I'm human! I can never
do that! Let's be realistic – I'm a young man with an evil inclination. This is
the way Hashem created me…" As such, the tzaddik's teachings and
directives go in the stagnant student's one ear and come out the other.
The
other pupil winces and says to himself, "My teacher has me nailed. Yes,
this lust is still burning like a fire within me. I might be light years away
from being like me teacher wants me to be, but if he's demanding this from me,
then I must be capable of attaining this." The pupil who maintains constant
and steady spiritual and personal growth takes the tzaddik's teachings with him
to the field in personal prayer and spends thirty minutes a day pleading with
Hashem to help him implement his Rebbe's teachings: "Merciful Father in
Heaven, how can I cling to You when my heart is full of lewdness and my brain
is contaminated with forbidden images? Have pity on me and rid me of this lust.
How can I surrender a life of inner peace and holiness for a purgatory of
debauchery and fantasy? Hashem, in Your loving-kindness, You gave me my teacher
and spiritual guide; please, help me fulfill his teachings and directives.
Don't let me go through life like this. I want You, Hashem – help me be a
kosher Jew!"
The
growing pupil, the one who makes the constant and steady growth, is the one who
prays to Hashem every day. Although he understands that he alone can't fulfill
his teacher's directives, he can with enough desire, perseverance and Hashem's
help. When we see true pupils like this, we know that they are connected to a
true tzaddik.
By Rabbi Shalom
Arush.
